Turkey

1 (12 pound) whole turkey
3/4 cup olive oil
2 tablespoons garlic powder
2 teaspoons dried basil
1 teaspoon ground sage
1 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon black pepper
2 cups water

Preheat oven to 325 degrees F (165 degrees C). Clean turkey (discard giblets and organs), and place in a roasting pan with a lid.
In a small bowl, combine olive oil, garlic powder, dried basil, ground sage, salt, and black pepper. Using a basting brush, apply the mixture to the outside of the uncooked turkey. Pour water into the bottom of the roasting pan, and cover.
Bake for 3 to 3 1/2 hours, or until the internal temperature of the thickest part of the thigh measures 180 degrees F (82 degrees C). Remove bird from oven, and allow to stand for about 30 minutes before carving.

Mac

2 cups uncooked elbow macaroni
4 tablespoons butter
2 tablespoons all-purpose flour
2 cups milk
1/4 onion, minced
salt and pepper to taste
1/4 pound processed cheese food
1/4 pound shredded Cheddar cheese 1/4 pound shredded Swiss cheese

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C).
Prepare the elbow macaroni according to package directions.
Meanwhile, melt the butter in a small saucepan over medium high heat. Stir in the flour until a cream colored paste forms. Then pour in the milk and stir constantly until this comes to a hard boil, then stir for 1 more minute. Remove from heat and set aside.
When the macaroni is cooked, spread 1/2 of it into the bottom of a lightly greased 9×13-inch baking dish. Then layer 1/2 of the grated onion, 1/2 of the salt and pepper and 1/2 of each of the cheeses. Repeat this one more time: macaroni, onion, salt and pepper and cheeses, and then pour the reserved white sauce over all. Top off with small pats of butter to taste.
Cover and bake at 350 for 45 minutes

Sweet potato casserole

4 cups sweet potato, cubed
1/2 cup white sugar
2 eggs, beaten
1/2 teaspoon salt
4 tablespoons butter, softened
1/2 cup milk
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/2 cup packed brown sugar
1/3 cup all-purpose flour
3 tablespoons butter, softened
1/2 cup chopped pecans

Preheat oven to 325 degrees F (165 degrees C). Put sweet potatoes in a medium saucepan with water to cover. Cook over medium high heat until tender; drain and mash.
In a large bowl, mix together the sweet potatoes, white sugar, eggs, salt, butter, milk and vanilla extract. Mix until smooth. Transfer to a 9×13 inch baking dish.
In medium bowl, mix the brown sugar and flour. Cut in the butter until the mixture is coarse. Stir in the pecans. Sprinkle the mixture over the sweet potato mixture.
Bake in the preheated oven 30 minutes, or until the topping is lightly brown.

Southern-Style Green Beans

http://spicysouthernkitchen.com/southern-style-green-beans/

Green Beans cooked low and slow until soft and tender in a bacon-infused broth.
Recipe type: Side Dish
Serves: 6
Ingredients
4 slices bacon, diced
2 pounds green beans, ends snapped off and longer beans snapped in half
2 cups chicken broth
2 cups water
1 teaspoon seasoned salt
½ teaspoon black pepper
½ teaspoon garlic powder
¼ teaspoon red pepper flakes
1 tablespoon butter, optional
Instructions
Brown and crisp bacon in a large pot. Remove bacon from pot and reserve.
Add green beans to pot along with all remaining ingredients, except butter.
Bring to a boil and then turn heat to medium-low. Cover and simmer for 1-2 hours, stirring occasionally.
Drain beans and add butter if using. Check beans for seasoning and add extra salt and pepper to taste. I like lots of black pepper. Sprinkle with bacon and toss to distribute the bacon and butter.

Anxiety

examples would be:

“Remember your breathing”
“Remember ”
“Would you like help me to help you to somewhere quieter/safer/calmer?”
“I’m here if you need me.” (At this point, you should leave them alone unless they ask)
“You’re panicking, it won’t last. You’ve got past this before, you’ll get past it again”

Growing up

The older I get the more judgemental I feel towards those people who are older than me and act like fools. I really struggled through my 20 ‘ s and teen years. Now that I’ve finally hit 30 I feel this incredible raw feminine power I have never experienced before.
In my teen years and all through my 20 ‘ s I felt a huge sense of self loathing. I was very quick to judge myself or just tear myself down.
Even last year I felt so insecure with myself that if my husband turned me down when I tried to seduce him it would have been months or years before I put myself out there on offer again. I just couldn’t handle the rejection.
I think this turn around is from watching people around me who are older and should be more experienced acting like complete fools. Treating their relationships like adolescent high school Facebook status update whores.
More on this later, after I figure out how to work this word press thing.